“A big house, a swimming pool in the yard, two beautiful cars in front of the house and waiting for the first child. After 9 years of marriage, I had everything. At least that’s what I thought.
I had two more days and was about to give birth when a discussion with my husband completely knocked me down.
– I want to be with the child but know that I don’t love you anymore.
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I had noticed that he had moved away from me during the pregnancy, but I thought he was only afraid of his new job, that of dad.
He told me that he had had an affair five years ago and that he had since realized that he felt nothing for me. I thought of my child and told him that I forgive him and that we must try to save our marriage.
Before I gave birth, I had all kinds of feelings. I was excited to meet the little one, but I was afraid of the fate of my marriage.
Cosmin was born on a Friday in June. He was so beautiful and innocent. He didn’t know what chaos was in his mother’s life. I think he was about four months old when I realized my husband’s real motive. She had an affair since I got pregnant and it went on. I took my baby for five weeks and left behind the pool and the villa and my dreams.
We moved into a tiny studio. I have never felt so alone and so troubled. I was desperate.
I wouldn’t let Cosmin see me crying. I’m hiding in the bathroom.
Cosmin was about four months old when I reached the end of my powers. I had a terrible argument with my child’s father. I hid in the bathroom, sat in the fetal position, and told myself I didn’t want to live anymore. A terrible silence followed. I don’t even know how I walked to the bathroom with tears streaming down my cheeks, but at one point I found a strength in me that I didn’t think existed. I decided not to take my life into my hands, not to let my ex-husband affect my life. I realized that I had paid too much attention to my weaknesses and had come to lead my life.
I packed my bags, took the baby, and left for my brother. along the way, I realized who was the reason for this power, my child. He gave me the strength to keep going, to wake up every morning. I realized that my happiness comes from within.
It’s a lesson that everyone must learn. I had made the mistake of basing my identity on my marriage, on the material things around me. I have learned that I am responsible for my happiness. ”